One of the most important things that happens directly after a kenshō experience is the loss of personal emotions. At least, that is what it seems like. But it is not actually what happens. The actual experience of kenshō results in a virtual wiping of the synapses within the brain’s neural network. Memory remains intact, as does the ability to feel emotion. What has occurred is that the emotional ties that were once held in common with certain memories and states of being have been severed.
Things that happen to you that once would have had you seething with anger no longer do so. Memories that once had you crying rivers lose their potency. People whom you once detested you are no longer bothered by. A state of equanimity sets in, that, at first, may be unsettling. You may wonder to yourself, have I lost my emotions? Can I love anymore? Can I hate?
All of these emotions remain accessible. But it has now become your choice whether or not to honor them. Whether or not to bring them forward past satori into your new state of BEing.
One of the consequences of this slate-cleansing process is an intensification of experiential awareness. As the state of Enlightenment becomes part of the lived reality, old patterns of thinking, of responding, or acting that have been stripped of their emotional power remain, but are no longer fueled by neuro-peptides coursing through the body in support of the thoughts and their potential actions. Previous meditative practice resulted in the ability to clear the mind of thoughts, but this state of BEing actualizes; it becomes the default state after satori. But, as mentioned, old patterns still remain and, as they come up, they must be dealt with. Because they are no longer fueled by emotions it is a relatively simple task to let them go when they do not serve the new personality construct.
One pitfall that seems to be a part of this process but actually is not, is when dealing with other people. Whether realized or not, the chemical expression of emotions is also an energetic expression. When we feel emotional, our bodies actually reflect those feelings which can be measured on instruments of different kinds. Energetically speaking, emotions are energy that can be detected through kirlian photography, aura-reading and energy work. When emotions are experienced, they also emanate from us as a field and other people can feel them. The stronger the emotion, the larger the field. If the emotion is directed at a certain person, then that person becomes the focal point of those emotions. If the emotions are directed at someone who has experience a kenshō event, then – and because of that event and the resultant ultra-sensitivity to physical and astral environs – that person experiences the emotional state as if it were her own.
This can be very confusing at first, but grows easier to handle in time. The emotions gleaned from others, which have rushed into the vessel of the enlightened one, can fuel responses commiserate either with old patterns of thinking and feeling or they can be processed and released. Effectively, they can pass through without catching hold. For the newly awakened, there remain old patterns that it is possible for the energy of the emotions to catch hold to, drawing the individual into the conflict which results in further confusion and inner examination. This is why it remains necessary for individuals who have experienced kenshō to continue in their meditative practices as well as designating time to the recapitulation process as a method of self-clearing and re-attunement.
The choice to remain involved in the world and with other people is the choice of service-to-others. The fallacy of seeking in the process of spiritual elevation as a function of egocentric tendencies of mind to the detriment of spirit are difficult to surpass as the ego’s grasp upon consciousness is often seemingly all-pervasive to those so encumbered. But the passage through the morass is ever-present. Its deceptive simplicity actually contributes to its difficulty as a “that’s it??” response often occurs after being told what seems to be an easy prognosis of quieting and controlling the mind. The actual process itself, once instigated, builds upon itself, which leads to a steady-state resonance that allows the individual to ground himself in a manner previously impossible. To be present during the daily grind and able to effectively project all of herself into whatever it may be they are engaged in. Even after all of this practice, the actual satori experience is an experience of grace that is transmitted through a spiritual teacher that may be present in the physical world or upon the astral planes. Therefore no one can predict exactly when Enlightenment may occur for anyone, or how.
Despite these pratfalls, it is not possible for a person who has experienced kenshō to un-experience it. To forget the experience or to return to the state of Maya. There remain no ties to the material world and its effects and all personality traits expressed thereafter become purposeful tools designated for specific tasks; the achievement of life-goals – of the spirit, not of desire – being paramount among those. Since the world of the senses holds no further attractions, those life goals must of necessity be spiritual in nature. And once kenshō has been experienced, the only spiritual goal worth achieving is helping others to move beyond Samsara as well.
The Enlightenment Series
5. Practical Enlightenment: Processing the emotions of other people